Oh god oh god oh god. I don't know what's happened to me over the past couple of weeks. That bloody flu thing just did me in and then it was Christmas, not that that's any excuse but the long and short is that I've hardly run at all these past three weeks. I'm supposed to be running a bloody half-marathon in 6 weeks and I'm right back to square one with my training. Is it possible, or even wise to still try and attempt it? The furthest I've run in the past three weeks is 5k, and I've only done that four or five times.

I'm finding it really hard to muster the same level of commitment and drive that I had this time last year. I seem to be so tired all the time, but I know that's really just a mind over matter thing. The weather has also been so, so diabolical of late. Even as I write it's still pissing down and the wind is so strong it's just blown next-door's wheelie bin into the road.

I really want to do it. I just don't want to get home from work, pull on my gear and go out running in the freezing rain!!

Tonight I went to the gym as the rain was so ferocious. It was absolutely FULL of new starters. I had to wait an age to get on a treadmill. I felt so tired though when I eventually got on. My legs ached.

OK. Going to try and fit in another couple of 5ks and then attempt 7 miles at the weekend. I think if I can do that, then I've got a chance of getting up to scratch, if I just add a mile each week to my long run. Maybe.