Back home.
Could only grab an hour in the gym tonight as I had to work late.
I was a lazy fucker on holiday all last week in France; I only ran twice, making up excuses about the rain and the heat, and now I'm paying for it. But really, I don't think I'm cut out to be a runner. I feel like a fraud just writing the word 'runner'. I'm trying to be a realist rather than a defeatist - and I just think I might need to find a different sport. If, after not running for six days, I struggle to run even twenty minutes then I kind of don't see the point really. How can I just lose it so quickly? For me, if I'm going to commit a lot of time to something, then I've either got to enjoy it or feel that somewhere along the line, I'm getting better at it, which would be its own reward. With running, I don't feel either. I feel like I'm going backwards, literally and figuratively. It's not that it's hard work. I don't give a shit about that. It's just the total lack of progress.
15 x mins crosstrainer
30 x mins treadmill
10 x mins powerplate
Could only grab an hour in the gym tonight as I had to work late.
I was a lazy fucker on holiday all last week in France; I only ran twice, making up excuses about the rain and the heat, and now I'm paying for it. But really, I don't think I'm cut out to be a runner. I feel like a fraud just writing the word 'runner'. I'm trying to be a realist rather than a defeatist - and I just think I might need to find a different sport. If, after not running for six days, I struggle to run even twenty minutes then I kind of don't see the point really. How can I just lose it so quickly? For me, if I'm going to commit a lot of time to something, then I've either got to enjoy it or feel that somewhere along the line, I'm getting better at it, which would be its own reward. With running, I don't feel either. I feel like I'm going backwards, literally and figuratively. It's not that it's hard work. I don't give a shit about that. It's just the total lack of progress.
15 x mins crosstrainer
30 x mins treadmill
10 x mins powerplate
posted by Rab at 1:22 PM
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Hello! We went to the Lot-et-Garonne, near a town called Agen. South of the Dordogne, lovely. My friends are still there and now it's really hot and sunny, typical. So hopefully you will be OK. That coast is a bit temperamental though. But you could always try surfing! Feeling a little less irrational today; hoping for a better run tonight.
Have a lovely time.
... thanks.
i have been stressing about it, it's true, and feeling guilty. really badly, this week. but i felt a bit better after reading that.
it's just weird, because it really does feel like it's all gone to pot this week though. i seriously feel so unfit, i don't understand it. i'm just going to forget about it and move on, though.
now, have you been defrauding me, krzysztof? i thought the race was on the sunday? have you definitely got this right? are you telling me i have to run 10k up a fucking armadillo-infested mountain the morning after i arrive? can i not just do the 1 mile fun-run instead? backwards?
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